A Defining Prayer

Lord God,

You know how much I despise myself.  You know the thoughts that race and dwell in my mind every day.  Jesus, you are the most beautiful, most deserving thing I've ever known.  Please, somehow allow me to see myself in the same light that You see me.  It's a daily struggle.  You know this, but I will place my trust in You, the author and finisher of my faith.  Give me the confidence and the humility to know that I am Yours and You, my Lord, are mine.  May I live under the knowledge that you have delivered me from a relationship with the world.  Just like in James 4:4, "If your aim is to enjoy the world, you can't be a friend of God" may I accept Your gift and be divorced from the pattern of this dark, cold, selfish world.  You are the one that I will follow.  Not my will but Yours be done.  Help me to see that I, in this divorce, am a friend of the Most High.  Thank you, Jesus.