Screaming Inside

I am in need...

... of life
... of a friend
... of peace
... of knowledge
... of direction
... of something better than what I have
... but who isn't?

What You Don't Hear Much...Psalm 85...

You showed favor to your land, O Lord; you restored the fortunes of Jacob.  You forgave the iniquity of your people and covered all their sins.  You set aside all your wrath and turned from your fierce anger.  Restore us again, O God our Savior and put away your displeasure toward us.  Will you be angry with us forever?  Will you prolong your anger through all generations?  Will you not revive us again that your people may rejoice in you?  Show us your unfailing love, O Lord, and grant us your salvation.  I will listen to what God the Lord will say; he promises peace to his people, his saints - but let them not return to folly.  Surely his salvation is near those who fear him, that his glory may dwell in our land.  Love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other.  Faithfulness springs forth from the earth, and righteousness looks down from heaven.  The Lord will indeed give what is good, and our land will yield its harvest.  Righteousness goes before him and prepares the way for his steps.

Cleansing Tears

Cleansing tears fall down my face and wash away the sin that I embraced

Say goodbye to every right I once claimed as my own
Fall on my knees
At last I see the truth that I am poor
Open my eyes
And You I find - waiting to restore, waiting to restore
My soul morns this wasted time spent loving self.  What foolish pride
Gently You show me the way that I can run again
Fall on my knees
At last I see the truth that I am poor
Open my eyes
And You I find - waiting to restore, waiting to restore
Fall on my knees
At last I see the truth that I am poor
Open my eyes
And You I find - waiting to restore, You're waiting to restore

Cleansing Tears
-Matthew and Lizi-
www.myspace.com/matthewandlizi

Realization

It is slowly becoming more and more apparent to me that a godly woman is so much more beautiful and attractive than a woman living by her own strength and light.

The Strong Willed Woman

A Strong Willed Woman...

has a deep desire to make a difference
is not content to coast
is fiercely loyal
needs to be involved
will not be ignored
has no reverse gear
tends to succeed
is wholehearted in whatever she does
has diverse interests
has a strong desire to do right
is willing to do what needs to be done

The Spouse of a Strong Willed Woman must be...
a godly person
comfortable with themself
confident in their abilities
not feel threatened or intimidated by her
steadfastly offering unconditional love to their wife

Coffee and Cigarettes

wake up, take your pills dear, i know this time of year ain't right for you...

you came with a sickness, shot down back in christmas, kamikaze rain...
and i'm sure you've lost that weight again,
i'm sure the pills keep pouring in,
like smoke that falls, it's caving into you...
so put me on a plane, and fly me to anywhere...but you...

one night, when you woke up, you bled till you spoke up, oh this ain't pretty, dear...
with clocks, watch the time go till spring, when the rain can finally be free...
and i'm sure you've lost that weight again,
i'm sure those pills keep pouring in,
we'll scream at night, to make them go away...
so put me on a plane, and fly me to anywhere...but you...


by Augustana [all the stars and boulevards]

Newspeak

by the Ghostwrite (Robby Lester)


We are so content to settle in our beds.  We're afraid of our debt.  We're afraid for our future.  We're afraid to connect.  The illusion of security, it masks the reality of our future forlorn.  So when somebody tells you everything's all clear we don't even blink.  We nod and agree.  We haven't been programmed to disagree.  It's similar to any regime who justifies malicious contempt with beliefs that no conscious being could ever believe.  But hey!  Everything's all clear.  But hey!  Everything's all clear.  But hey!  Everything's all clear.  We're afraid to connect, so I'm afraid to connect.  And you're afraid to connect, so I'm afraid to connect.  Everything's all clear.  Everything's all clear.  Keep telling yourself everything is all clear.